5/52, SWS-Weddings, NMM-Lessons, TT-Advice?

I am in a funk.
Not a muse-funk-- in fact, I have TOO much to say! I have so many things going on right now, and I could take days and days just talking about each one.

Truth is, I don't have TIME to do that.
So, it's a funk as far as getting posts posted. I should join the P.O.S's. The Prisoners of Summer Bloggers. As in, since summer hit, I can't blog as much. Parole is in a month or two once school starts, the wedding's done, and I've moved.
I'm gonna do my best for the next while- but there's SO much going on, and I'm in the middle of so many time-consuming things, that blogging will continue to be sporatic and possibly mundane. Fair warning.

So, first things first. Let's play "KETCHUP".

Friday: Find Mom Friday! This was me at my good friends' wedding in Nelson, BC this past weekend. Well, not at the actual WEDDING. Who would wear a tube-top to that!? No, it was an outside wedding on the beach, and between the ceremony and reception, there were 4 hours to kill. So my (ex) mother-in-law and I took the kids swimming at the beach. It helped that it was a killing 37' outside that day! HOT HOT HOT!!

Saturday: Six Word Saturday. My six words for that day are, Wedding Vows Mean Something More Now. Watching Uncle Andrew and Joe join their two families the way that Will and I will be doing in a few weeks touched my heartstrings, and I had tears fall easily as I saw how much they had gone through to get to this precious moment in their lives. Chris was the best man, and looking up there at the couple and him standing beside them, while vows of fidelity and "forever love" and devotion were spoken, it was hard not to feel a bit of that heartache from years past. Remembering when he said those same things to me, promised. My heart said a prayer that they would ALWAYS love each other this way so they wouldn't have to end up like Chris and I did- hurt. I was reminded last night that I'm truly being blessed to have this new life in front of me with such a special man in Will.

Monday: Not Me Monday. I did NOT miss my man this weekend. I did NOT drive over 12 hours in a 24 hour time period. I did NOT learn a bunch of lessons this weekend, mostly from my children. I will NOT be blogging about those in the near future.

Tuesday: Tuesday Tunes. Of course, lately I'm listening to a lot of love or wedding songs. But my kids crack me up- while we drove home the other day, it was thunderstormin' somethin' fierce! The kids requested "Fire Burnin'" on the iPod. They loved watching the lightening crack to the beat, and we probably listened to that song on repeat about 6 times before *I* said I couldn't handle it another time! lol

And, Wednesday: Wednesday Ws:
Who: Me
What: hates playing "Ketchup"
Where: in my blog, in my journal, in my housekeeping, and in my LIFE!
When: when I forget to take the time to keep up
Why: because it always makes me feel unorganized when I don't have my thoughts written or typed down. It's just how I cope.

Wednesday Ws- Dress

Who: Sin, Babbling Brook and I
What: had a blast
Where: at the bridal store
When: last night
Why: so I could try on wedding dresses. I didn't try on dresses when I got engaged to Chris... in truth, I didn't even SEE my dress until less than 12 hours before I got married. My awesome sister and I were the same measurements, so she sewed a dress (IN A WEEK!) and fit it to her. When I arrived in Calgary from Vancouver a day before the wedding, I tried it on. It fit exactly right. Pretty cool to have a sister that selfless with her time.

But THIS time, I tried on dress after dress. It was cute to watch Babbling Brook get super super excited with EVERY. SINGLE. ONE. We brought the camera, and she went to town taking photos of every dress I tried on, even pictures of the wall, the chair, the veils....

All in all, it was a fun experience. It was good to try on a bunch of different styles so I could know what TYPE of dress I'd like best.

And when they say when you find THE ONE, you just know?

Yah. We totally had that moment. It made me feel shiny. It got us allllll excited. It inspired hair accessories and visions and squeals. It's so pretty. We even tried on others AFTER that one, and nothing made me feel like that one.

Then we scoured for shoes, checked out flowers... had a total "girlie/wedding" night.
I even managed to get Will to agree to the wording for the invitations without pulling too many teeth, although, I'm pretty sure guys have a daily allotment of wedding planning before their heads explode, so that was the extent of our decisions for yesterday.


And it's Wednesday, so time for Jillybean's Word Verification Wednesday. Type in the word verification in the comment section, and make up a dictionary definition to go along with it. Play as much as you want, and if you don't like the word, just refresh the page for a new one.

Have fun!

Wednesday Ws and Word Verification Wednesday

Who: The Master of The House
What: Has a master plan
Where: The master bedroom, the basement, the kids' bedrooms, the overgrown gardens
When: allllllll week
Why: because the house is being sold. For sure. And masterfully skilled me gets to get the place all spic-and-span before next week, when I plan to list it. That's cleaning carpet. That's painting/mudding/sanding/fixing/washing walls. That's the .....*eeek* basement. ORRR the Garage!! So, if I'm MIA, you'll find me crying curled in a ball trying to avoid the kids too many mightie Mouses...ew spiders and cobwebs. Cleaning the masterful mess. Don't make me clean. You won't like me when I'm cleaning!

Who: YOU!
What: are invited to play along
Where: Down below, in the comment section
When: This morning, this afternoon, this evening-- whenever!
Why: it's Word Verification Wednesday, thanks to Jillene. So, play as many times as you like!

A Million "themes" for the Day.

It's April Fools' Day. NAY. I hate this day. It's kinda childish-- and not in the "I'm young at heart" childish way, more like the "I don't wipe my own butt" annoying childish way. Chris says I used to try to 'get' him, but I don't remember that. Clearly I'm much cooler than that now. (yay?)

But it IS Word Verfication Wednesday. Yay. And Wednesday Ws, which I don't have the inclination to do today. Nay. It's also Chocolate Wednesday. Yay. And some people call it hump day. (I don't even want to SAY if this is a yay or nay for fear of being taken the wrong way!) So really, Wednesday could be a really cool day of the week. Better than Tuesday, at least! ;) But, it's the start to a new month, which is ALWAYS a good thing-- a month of 'spring-ness'. Yay. Which translates into flowers and sunshine. YAY. And floods. Nay. And I am down two permanent kids as of today (nay)-- the day seems SOOO quiet. YAY. It's kinda nice-- I'll get so much done this month, so I'm happy for the break. YAY. Although, this week sometime I'll be putting up new signs for more childcare, which means I'll be doing interviews again. NAY.

Selling Girl Guide cookies, for you locals who want some. They're the chocolate and vanilla sandwich type. Yay. NOT the nasty mint chocolate ones. NAY!!! If I don't sell them to our ASSIGNED route, I end up with all these cookies in my home. Nay. Buy them!!!!!! i do NOT want them! I say Nay Nay!~

(Dont' forget to play Word Verification Wednesday!)

Wednesday Ws and Word Verification Wednesday

Who: All you 'lurkers' out there
What: are being "called out"
Where: here on the blog during Word Verification Wednesday
When: Today
Why: My sister recently told me of a meeting with a friend of hers. She said that her friend was over at her house, and saw a picture of me. "Who is that?!" When my sister said who it was, the friend got excited, and confessed that she 'stalks' my blog (Hi Tan!) and sometimes checks a few times a day. I was "blogmarted". Then they talked about stuff IN this blog-- namely, Will.
"And Will-- I think he lives here!"
Sister smiles, "yes, I think maybe he does."
That's when Tan realized that my sister has MET Will, and yes, Will lives in their area. Funtimes. So, Will got blogmarted too.

So, in light of this conversation, I'd like to call all you lurkers out. Just say hi. Leave a name or don't-- doesn't matter. We're just happy you're here. And by we, obviously I mean me. It's easy today-- play Word Verification Wednesday, and join me! :) I was checking the stats with Will last night, and figured out that there was 108 DIFFERENT people who checked the blog yesterday-- let's see who you are. Where you're from! What you think. Join the party!



It's Jillybean's Word Verification Wednesday. Play along below!

Wednesday Ws and Word Verification Wednesday

For More Word Verification Wednesdays, visit Jillybean at Thou Shalt Not Whine and play along.


Who: Me
What: wants to introduce "Will"
Where: here on the blog
When: right now!
Why: because the time has come. The time is now. :) (points for those who know the book that's from)

I mentioned a few posts ago how I went on a date and said I'd talk more about it later. Well, here it is. :) I've been dating Will for a while now. It was a tough thing for me to tell anyone about for a few reasons: One, I knew that dating anyone so quickly after Chris runs the risk of a serious rebound issue. And Two, I'm still legally married. But, mostly, Three, because Will is awesomely incredible and I didn't want to share him.

1) serious rebound? No. I admit, I worried about that, quite intensely, for about a week. It was during that week, and subsequent weeks and dates later, that I realized that there was a very definite reason that Will came into my life when he did. Situations out of my control. Timing was everything. There were spiritual moments that showed me that this is the right path at the moment. I can't explain it. I don't need to. What I feel, spiritually, never needs explaining to anyone.

2) Still legally married. This is a big deal to me, as many of you 'old followers' would know. When Chris left last summer, it was deep in my mind that, no matter what, I was not going to be a hypocrite and 'cheat' on my marriage. Having said that, Will and I were friends before we were 'dating'. We are both going through our own divorces, and we became sounding boards for our trials in that process. MOST of the time, we were talking about our soon-to-be exes, and what went wrong on either side. But, there was something about him that made me realize this friend was amazing. Do I need to date him to have that friendship-- nope. And I love that. In telling my bishop about it, I realized that dating him wasn't inherently WRONG in the way of black and white that most people see it. But there are a lot of people who believe we shouldn't date because we're both still legally married. They will be happy to know, that, truth be told, we're not 'dating' the same way anymore anyways. Because we CAN wait until our marriages are through. So, at this time, Will is my incredibly astounding friend who can't wait to date me! ;) And I him. We still talk. We still build our relationship. We just do it at a physical distance. Will lives 2 hours away anyways, and since I have my kids around most of the time(who aren't allowed to meet any potential suitors for 3 months of serious dating anyways) us dating is difficult as it is.

3) And three. Sharing Will with you all scares me. Putting something special out there for people to 'attack'. But, in order for my new story to emerge, you need to know about him. He's a main player now.

Will has been the best spiritual, non-family male influence on me that I've ever known. Honestly, ever. And whatever his role is in my life, for the present time, I'm happy to have him in the way he's in it today. God put him here for now. To teach me about the other sides of divorce, about what marriage should be, and about being the right person in order to get my goals.

And, for right now, I'm working on me. It's the next step. I don't need to think about my future with or without Will. My progression in today's path will eventually show me the right direction for the next paths.

So, without further adieu, meet Will. He's awesome.


My word Verification: (don't forget to play along in the comments!)
Unpigd - (Verb)- to learn manners. Also see: for a female to get divorced. (lol)

Wednesday Ws and Word Verification Wednesday

Who: Babbling Brook
What: had a conversation with me
Where: in the car
When: this morning while waiting at the bus stop
Why: because she's cute.

Brook- You and my Uncle should be a good couple... he's having a divortion too!

BAAHAHAH, divortion. Like killing a full-grown, adult baby! haha. I am now loving that word. lol

Who: Me
What: is coping
Where: inside my heart
When: a little more each day
Why: because I have amazing friends. I have made new friendships with people in similar situations and have enjoyed 'comparing notes' and confidences. I have friends, tried and tested, who have stuck by my side through every tear and complaint. I have friends who bring cookies, send little love notes or packages, and speak in certain love languages that are touching and humbling. I hope I can be that friend to these people that they are to me.
And, because I have amazing family. Parents who are there for me whenever I ask. Sisters, who amidst their own phenomenal pain and hurt, have listened to my fears and failures, and have loved me in spite of my faults. Who support me more than anyone ever can. Brothers who hug and call and write messages. I feel loved more and more, and so less alone than ever.

And, because I have amazing faith.
I know I confuse people. But my faith in God and Jesus and the atonement are really bringing me through this. I know I 'chose' Chris to leave. But let's remember, it's never an easy choice to make when a marriage is at stake. It hurts. But sometimes the right choice is the hardest one to make.
So I thank my blogger friends I've never met but love completely, my neighbours, my ward, my dayhome mothers who are my friends as well, my separated/divorcing/divorced friends who 'get me', my Eight Gothic Vagina girls, and everyone who fits into any category above. Thank you. I've needed you.






And that's right. It's Chocolate Wednesday. I will not be having Chocolate today. And I'm okay with that. Besides, I'm not really into Chocolate lately. I'm more into the Candy thing, and had far too much Candy last night. lol.. and I loved it.

Being Wednesday, it's time to play along with Word Verification Wednesday, courtesy of Jillybean. Everyone join in!

My Verification Explanation today:
nernab

kidnapping a computer geek

Okay, Okay, I'll Blog already- Wednesday Ws

It's been a month of Sundays since I did this, so, without further adieu, I present Wednesday Ws.

Who: Chris
What: surprised me
Where: sitting here at the computer
When: Last night
Why: he decided to read this blog. It's always good when he reads it-- it lets him kinda get into my 'head' a bit. Not that I don't tell him the same things I say here, but he says reading things is sometimes easier than hearing them. So, he sat and read the past few entries. The one with my friend and my conversation, the one about Nourishing... then he's all.. "uh, where is today's post?!" but I hadn't written yesterday, so I guess I should write today.
I don't know what he thinks about what he read. But I do know he gets me a lot more than I thought he did.
Today he told me that he doesn't think this will work out. Not because of anything on his part, but because of things I say or the way I am thinking lately.
I'm not sure he's wrong. But I am not sure he's right. I mean, I want this to work. I love him, he loves me (and I know that now), we don't fight about money like most people, we communicate what *I* see as fairly well, and we enjoy each other. So why doesn't this have potential?? Me.
I was talking to a friend who is also going through a divorce right now, and they asked me, "What do you want?". I replied, "I want to love without thinking again. Like I used to."
Is that possible? I don't know if I will ever 'love without thinking' anyone ever again. Or is it just not with Chris? Am I permanently damaged goods now? Never giving that up? I mean, I'm technically AFRAID to give it up-- I still have the emails from EF to Chris and from Chris to EF on my computer. And, the other day, I re-read them. Which only puts me into a horribly sad mood. And yes, I did it to myself. And I'm dumb for doing it. And I have ALL the power to erase those. But, something in me can't. Like I'm afraid of 'forgetting'. Or moving on-- moving on means changing something in a way I don't get to control? Maybe I would finally move on with Chris if I got rid of those. And EF. (I'm seriously contemplating telling her that I need her out of my life-- but we'll see. )

Who: Me
What: ate meat
Where: at my kitchen table
When: last night for dinner
Why: we had the 'mormonaries' (aka: missionaries) over for dinner last night. They know I'm doing the raw vegan thing, but I feel bad forcing others to eat it. So I made ribs. And, lemme tell ya.

It was SUPER delicious.

Man, I miss meat!!! THANKFULLY, my tummy didn't get upset with it, and I feel fine. But, I was back to my shake this morning. mmm. Berries and Flax, nothing better. And snap peas for snack. And Avocados. And all yummy goodness. For lunch, I'm making seasoned yam wedges-- by the way, they taste SO good, I feel like I'm cheating every time I eat them! And I've had a head cold for a week or so-- I especially like the pumpkin-orange goop left in the Kleenex after I eat that! LOL A few chickpeas and hummus and almonds and other veggies to round out lunch-- making me hungry!

Who: Seeley Carpet Cleaners
What: call nearly EVERY month
Where: ???? (doesn't apply)
When: uh. Every month. Keep up, eh?!
Why: to con me into using their cheap-arse carpet cleaning services. I hate professional carpet cleaning-- they do a TERRIBLE job. Me and Safeway's Rug Doctor do 5x a better job thankyouverymuch. HOWEVER, they also do furnaces. For ONCE, when I needed my furnace done, they actually phoned at a convenient time! So, Saturday, my home will be flushed of all germy nasty spores and my furnace will be running like...well... like a furnace!

Who: My girlfriend, my parents, and my brother
What: will be sleeping
Where: in my home
When: from tonight until the weekend is done
Why: Girlfriend has a convention in town and needs a place to sleep and eat. No problem, although, since Chris is officially 'OUT' by tonight, I'll be doing the single-mom thing again and will likely be running around with 3 monkeys every night... to do crap like get valentines made for school... which isn't even held on Valentine's Day... which meant I thought I got out of dumb stuff like that...which means I don't... which means I now will have a million square pieces of Sponge Bob valentines to pick up around the house... and chocolate wrappers... which is only annoying because I don't get to eat any of the chocolate.., because I'm raw vegan...and because Chris won't be giving me a Valentine's present...because I think Valentine's is a stupid holiday... and I've told him not to...which only means he should anyways... although, is he technically my valentine considering I've practically kicked him out?.. Not sure how much fun of a hostess I'm gonna be. LOL.
My parents are only here for a night on their way to a cruise. Yah. nice. I wanna go away. In fact, I was telling Chris that I am seriously contemplating taking a few days off and going somewhere warm. Like, beach-warm. Alone. 100% completely alone. Because I need to get away for a bit. Alas, I have a job.

Who: you guys
What: need to play along'
Where: below in the 'comment section'
When: today, Word Verification Wednesday, of course
Why: because it's fun. And I like reading your funny answers. Not sure what Word Verification Wednesday is? Check out Jillybean at Thou Shalt Not Whine to play along. Good times are had all over bloggyland.

Wednesday Ws

Who: The dayhome
What: will be empty
Where: oh where have my children gone!?
When: T minus three days!
Why: Aside from losing that one little girl, the two full-timers I have are moving to Edmonton and Friday is their last day. (One of them being Angel. How sad! She's too cute) So, I'll have two part-timers (one drop-in, one twice a week). And I still haven't gotten a hold of EF to tell her that I'm not taking her kids afterall. I left a message for her to call me, but she hasn't. note to self: call her again today. Seeing as things with Chris are still so positive, it could well go into January if not longer. Of course, it could finish tomorrow. But so far, so good. So, I need her not to be here. Anyways. I'm actually kinda excited for a bit of time off, although, I need the money. It'll be nice to have days of just Mimi and I, since she's never really had any one-on-one attention. I've had the dayhome for nearly her whole life. It'll be nice to take her to the zoo, to have naps. LOL And I'll probably find less time to blog seeing as she'll be bored by herself once in a while after ALWAYS having someone to play with and I'll be busy playing barbies and dressup. I printed up more 'ads' for mailboxes and grocery-store bulletin boards, but I hate that part. Let the interviews commence. Blah.

Who: Fatty McBubberson
What: Wants to remind you
When: Today, of course
Where: Wherever you are. Whatever you're doing. Drop everything and commence
Why: Let us remember THIS post. Yes, you read it correctly, today is Chocolate Wednesday. And, for your sharing satisfaction, I have ONLY had four of these. (who cares that it's only 9:30 am... there's no time restrictions for Chocolate Wednesday! lol) I bought our Hallowe'en candy last night, and opened it up first thing this morning! hahaha. Okay, in defence of my lack of control, I opened it to give a peice to the school-kids on their way to school. I was being giving. Yah, that's it. Clearly I would NEVER have alternative, more selfish motives! Geez, what do you take me for!!? :P tee hee. (don't answer that!)


Who: Pessy McPessimistersons
What: should be happy
Where: uh...
When: once hearing this
Why: because I have nothing exciting to blog. So, my life is officially "boring". Boring is good, one anonymous said. So, there you have it. BOw-ring! As requested. :) (by the way, I love this store! And, yes, I recognize that it's not pronounced "BO-ring", but, in my ignorant defence, a bow-tie is pronounced "bo", so I say bow-ring! Don't ask for further explanation. It makes sense to me and my sista, Keeks. And sisters don't have to explain what's funny to them. Clearly. )

Wednesday Ws

Who: LL
What: Is officially Twit-Twit-Twooo'd
Where: Cardel Place
When: last night
Why: because it's her first year of brownies, so she got her 'enrollment' done. It's cute how so many things in Brownies hasn't changed since *I* was a brownie. I love that I am passing on that love of a program to my children. But some things HAVE changed... ie: the Brownie Promise. Uh, they started to chant it together, and lost me on the second line! What happened to "I Promise, to do my duty to God, the Queen and My COuntry. To help other people every day, expecially those at home"?!!?? Nope- now it's something else I don't recognize.

Another thing that has changed since I was a brownie-- mint Chocolate cookies. Ew. I know some people prefer these over the vanilla/chocolate sandwich ones, but really, not me.
And another change is the price of said cookies. But that's inevitable.

Wow. That's a whole lotta NOTHING to talk about. So, I'm leaving you with some of my favourite clips a la YouTube. I woke up this morning to THIS song in my head, sang it to my kids to wake them up when Mimi promptly told me, in no short of words, "STOP SINGING, MAMMA~!" LOL one of my favourite movie scenes EVER, though.

Some of my favourite movies are old, classical musicals. They are PURE entertainment-- movies aren't made like this anymore-- except for the odd occasion like in THIS movie. But, here's a list of my favourite scenes from some GREAT movies.

Carousel
Seven Brides For Seven Brothers (word was, they did this in one take)
The King And I (haha, fast forward to the funniest part at 3:50 through to 5:06)
Victor Borge (okay, I recognize it's not a musical movie, but too good not to share. I have never seen this until today and laughed and laughed!! I saw Borge do this on his own, but never with Dean Martin!)
Chicago (not quite a classical, but still entertaining)

Wednesday Ws

Who: 'F.B'
What: sent me this
Where: in my email inbox
When: sometime during the night
Why: Because I'm famous!! Because I'm fantastic. Because... uh....well, because I was part of their mass email group, most likely!
HAHAHAH!

Hello,

I'm the webmaster of http://www.peloop.com
I wanted to know if by any chance you would be interested in doing an unbiased
review of our site http://www.peloop.com on your
blog http://daisyhalos..blogspot.com/

If you agree you can choose between receiving a product sample
or receiving a payment.

If you choose the product sample instead of the payment the sample is
yours to keep and you don’t need to send it back.

The product sample that you can get is Peloop - a penis enhancer
and you can see it there: http://www.peloop.com

Please let me know if you are interested.

Thank you
F. B

For a second there, I thought I was famous! They want ME to write a review! LOL How very Carrie Bradshaw of me-- a writer. Yay. lol

yah, after finding out it was a penis enhancer, I wasn't all that excited. I mean, there's a few problems with that. A) I'd be writing pretty rave reviews if they made my penis larger-- that would be a feat of fantastical proportions! LOL B) Bringing that up with Chris is just plain insulting. LOL There's conversation people just SHOULDN'T have with their spouse or Ex-to-be! (and yes, I think this picture is gosh-darn HILARIOUS!!!!!!)

But seriously, do people actually say YES to this type of mass-emailing?!!! Sent to me PERSONALLY from FB!!!! Uh, "Friggen Big"? perhaps "Found Bliss"? How about "Frightfully Blossomed"? Or, something my father would make up: "Fantastic Broduct"? LOL I particularly find the sentence "and you do not need to send it back" Roll-On-The-Floor-Laugh-Worthy! Who the heck would want to purchase a 'previously tested' penis enlarger!? HAHAHAHAHAHAH ew

Who: Me, the kids, and possibly Chris
What: are going to learn something new this winter, develop a new habit, and get some outdoor air and exercise
Where: In the snowy mountains in the powder
When: weekends and holidays
Why: Because we've always wanted to, and just never done it. And so this year, we're gonna look into snowboarding. Well, Chris and I are, the kids are either going to ski or snowboard, although I'd assume ski.

That's the good thing about us lately-- we have been just doing those things we always said we wanted to do. Why did we wait?! Well, no more 'waiting' for life to get easier or quieter or anything like that-- we're gonna go OUT and DO IT!! Life this way is sooo much more fun, and I like seeing Chris actually *DO* stuff now. Before, he'd complain about not having things in common, or not doing things together, and then would shut down any ideas I would give about fixing the situation. Yep- biggest pet peeve-- people complaining over and over about something they can fix! Grrr. Soooooo glad that's changing. He's also gonna buy a woman's helmet for the back of his motorcycle, for either me or future girls he wants to take for a ride. We've talked about purchasing a bike for me if we decide to stay together, but that's SOOO far from my list of priorities of fun right now. I would rather spend WAY LESS money and get my dream car! If we stay together, I may have to buy another garage! LOL *although, I DO have more space in there, since he did help me clean out my garage this weekend, including hanging all the bikes and taking all the junk to the dump, ect. . Of course, it was to make room for his motorcycle, but hey, he also picked up the latest Mighty, so I think it's fair!!!

Who: My Neighbour and Dayhome parent
What: told me to look outside!
Where: my back door
When: this morning
Why: To see this:

It's really fun to watch things happen. They've been putting the bricks on the other wall (you can't see here) but today, getting the steeple is kinda fun. Watching the big crane hoist it up and such. It's starting to look like an LDS chapel now, not just a big, long building.

Wednesday Ws

Who: every single dayhome child
What: was in a cranky mood
Where: ALL OVER THE HOUSE!
When: the entire day, yesterday
Why: something crabby in the air? Who knows!? I swear, by 9:00 AM, I was ready for nap time! I don't know how it's possible that they ALL have a 'bad sleep' the night before, or how they're all feeling a bit 'sick', or whatever. But seriously, yesterday was the day of AHHHHGGHGHHG!

Who: me, and the kids
What: got an hour of running in
Where: around McKenzie Lake
When: last night, while LL was in Brownies
Why: well, my scale is slowly inching the WRONG direction! I will prevail, however. I have started this running thing, and HOPE to continue it during the fall. Running yesterday, pushing the stroller and Bear keeping up on his bike, it was SO nice. Just breathing in the crisp, cooler air. And McKenzie Lake has a lot of mature trees around it, so for most of the run there were some crisp leaves to crunch through. How is anything a better sound than that? I don't know why, but I heard it's because I was BORN in it, but something in me comes alive in the fall. I feel more vibrant and at peace. Every year, without fail, I have this experience. I am a fall baby. I look best in fall colours (my colouring was done a few years back, and I'm a "TRUE SPARKLING AUTUMN") and I'm just happy at fall. I mean, what's not to love?!

Who: MC
What: gave me a GREAT link to a GREAT Play-doh recipe
Where: at THIS LINK
When: a few days ago was when she sent me the recipe, but I made it today
Why: Why'd she send it, or why'd I make it? Well, no matter to either of the options... I mean, I RUN A DAYHOME (so does she) so why else would I make it?! Point is, it's a GREAT recipe, so thanks for sharing MC. Now I share with the world. Took 5 minutes to make, and the playdoh itself is really good.
And, for those who care...
we're up to 10 mighties. Did I always have these mice, and just not notice until I put a million traps out? Or is this a new thing? Oh, and PS-- DON'T fall for that 'radar sound mouse deterant' thingimabob-- OBVIOUSLY it doesn't work!

Wednesday Ws

Who: MC
What: introduced me to a new song
Where: over the phone, technically. And then via youtube! lol
When: yesterday morning
Why: because it's a good song for me right now! Yes, I am in love with yet another song:
So What? no, that's the song! Click on the link to listen. WOOT.

How do you not love that?

Who: Me
What: In searching for other songs, I started thinking about break-up songs. Go figure, right.. me? Thinking break-up songs!?? ;P oh but why!!!? Anyways.
Where: infront of the computer screen
When: after listening to "So What?"
Why: Well, thinking about break-up songs led me to thinking about past boyfriends and the songs that I link to them. More correctly, the song that I link to the breakup. Whether it was because of the message of the song, or because it's a song that reminds me of that person, or just the time in my life.

non-ex Ex: Near You Always -Jewel
BAMM: That's What She Said -Backstreet Boys
DJ: (soooo many songs other than these to list!) Let Me Let Go - Faith Hill, You Were Mine -Dixie Chicks
bagelboy: Aint No Sunshine - Bill Withers
Nacho: Six, Eight, Twelve - Brian McKnight
Chris (the time we broke up while dating): I Understand -McMaster and James, Some Things Never Change- Tim McGraw, Best of Intentions - Travis Tritt


I love how easily a song can bring us back into a time in our lives. I love being taken back to the smells, to the feelings in just the opening notes of a song we relate to times in our lives. But, stronger still, the people who were/are in our lives and the memory of them we embrace through music. I know we all have those songs-- those songs that make you remember someone in the INSTANT the first tone rings in our ears.


Who: YOU
What: are questioned
Where: right here, right now
When: ooops,.... lol... right now, as already mentioned above!
Why: Well... after thinking about MY breakup songs, I started thinking more: what are YOUR break-up songs?

Here's a few good'ers to get you inspired, (mostly ANGRY break-up songs.. but slow ones aren't my thing too much lately).
Stronger
Hit The Road Jack
I Used To
You and I Both
I'm Free

So here it is: The Challenge! Leave a comment-- give me a list of YOUR break-up songs. You'll travel down memory lane-- and hopefully come out alive! :) And, at least, if you ever have a break up in the future (GOSH I *SINCERELY* HOPE NOT!!!!!!!!!!!!), you'll have a good list of woe-is-me or I-don't-need-you songs to download! ;P Yah.. that's looking on the bright side. Well, you can't say I'm not a positive person! lol

The Wednesday Ws combined with Tuesday Tunes, I guess! Whatever.. lol

Wednesday Ws

Who: this yummy mummy (take that as a slight sarcastic remark)
What: stood on the scale again!! dun dun duhhhhh
Where: um. In the bathroom. Who cares?! lol
When: this morning
Why: I'm curious how heavy tit and tat are. (oh, and if you can think of a BETTER name for the twins, because tit and tat are soooooo wrong!!!-- I'm open to suggestions) How much weight, now that I'm TWO WEEKS post-flat-chestedness (lol), did I actually gain in this process? So far, that is.
I stood on the scale 1/2 hour before surgery. I was 137, pretty much (their scale was up a few pounds, but the Walmart one earlier that day wasn't). And I stood on the same scale again, 18 hours post-op. I was up to 152! That was shocking!!
Got home. And in the course of the few weeks, I've brought my scale back down to 142. Not bad, if you ask me! Up only 5 pounds. WEEEEE.
New goal? you guessed it-- 139. AGAIN!!! Grrrrrrr. lol I can officially start running today (although who the heck thinks THAT'S a good idea?! lol) but I haven't found a good sportsbra that would fit my measurements now. On top of that, I have to buy and wear TWO! (Dr's. orders)
Oh... and those measurements!~? yah, I took them. I'm exactly 'hourglass'. ish. lol I am 38-30-38. So I'm glad I'm relatively proportionate. :D One more week until I'm out of bandages and into 'regular' bras. YAY!

Who: deadbeat mom
What: didn't get her little boy into Beavers this year!
Where: ANYWHERE!
When: on any night!! Well, kinda....
Why: They don't have enough leaders for the amount of 5-year old boys in the area. So they don't have space. And, saddest yet, they called last night. They had room for him in the Sunday Beaver Colony. I had to decline, stating that Sunday is our religious day. :( Saying things like that is so hard to do. I know it's the RIGHT choice, but it still sucks, seeing as he misses out on Beavers this year because of the right choice. :(

Who: NOT deadbeat mom
What: took the kids out
Where: to Boston Pizza
When: last night, supper time
Why: for FHE (family home evening). FHE is a night that is 'promoted' by our church to strengthen families and build relationships. We usually have it on Monday nights, although, last night was Tuesday.
When I was a little girl, my parents took us to Swiss Chalet for FHE to tie along with a lesson on 'manners'. They were prepping us for a dinner at a ritzy place we'd be performing at, but, oddly enough, it's one of the few FHE lessons I actually recall from my own childhood. Sure, it's only Swiss Chalet. And sure, I only took my kids to Boston Pizza. But that's not the point.
They were SOOO well behaved. Although Mimi had some issues, the three of them did me proud, and we had a good time.
They may not recall this FHE as anything special. But it was fun to pass along the tradition. I think I'll do it again-- I didn't have to cook OR clean-- how does it get any better?! ;)

Days of Interesting Days

I know, it's Wednesday. Which means it should be a Wednesday W's day. But because there's sooo much to say, I couldn't bear to subject myself to that forum for today. Instead, we're going on a different theme. Everything lately has been kinda... weird. So, today we're gonna do, Wednesday Weirds...

Monday consisted of a bunch of weird, random encounters that I was soooo unprepared for. I mean, none of them were BAD per se, but in general, they were just, weird.

I got an email from each side of a married couple, but each of them sent it to me personally. She wanted to know how single life was treating me, and he wanted to know about the boobs. LOL. Typical, right? okay, both of them are unaware the other has emailed me ON THE SAME DAY, no less. I don't hear from this couple EVER, and here, on the same day, they both message me. One with genuine interest in life as a single mom (?? should I assume there's a bit more to her proding?) and one with genuine interest in, to put it frankly, FEELING my new girls! Ahhhh, big problem, me thinkie. I had an inner chuckle to myself, all the while, thinking... is this for real!? Where's the hidden camera!? And how the heck do I reply to EITHER of them!?

Next is a phone call from someone who is, uh... ten steps more ahead of a relationship than I am. Problem is, that relationship centres on ME! HAHAH, didn't know I was in the market! lol AWKWARD!

Then, as if some weird bermuda triangle thing hit my life, that friend who was flat out ignoring me was totally acting all normal again. ??? uh.. did I miss something!? There was no reason for the ignoring. Nothing. So call me confused and paint my toenails, but I shook my head for the millionth time... and it was only Monday morning!

Another married guy friend keeps asking me to join him and his wife. First off, lets set something straight! I do NOT know why these things are all happening at this time in my life-- I find it disturbingly humourous. To that point of nervous laughter...uh...'is this for real, what the freek do I reply with? LOL" Secondly, uh, the answer is a resounding NO! Like you were all worried, I'm sure! HAHAHAHA. But, seriously! Worse of worse, his wife--- NOT INTO THAT!!! HAHAH, what, like bringing in a third person when your WIFE isn't into it is going to go as 'planned'.. That would be a mistake of EPIC proportions! LOL
Shakes head.
And, he is well aware of my situation in life currently, so asking me to help a married man cheat-- yah, A) don't know me well enough AT ALL!!!! And B) really don't get that I'm probably the LAST person to approach for support in that category right now! And ever. So yah, no. Major weirdness to me.

Then the doorbell rings. That's unexpected, since the kids I dayhome are all here-- and parents aren't due to arrive for a while. Who's at the door? EF and her daughter. !!!!!???? Nice to see her, her daughter rushes in and gives me a huge hug. (I, of course, am careful to hug people these days. lol) EF then starts gushing about the twins-- how much were they? They look great. How do I feel? What size did I go? ... and then starts to touch them. LOL For some reason, I felt pregnant again-- people who just up and touch your buldging bodyparts without permission. lol I thought it was fairly weird. Kinda waited for the 'I came over because I wanted to talk about such-and-such moment' , or 'I need a cup of sugar' or something. Nope. Just came over to check out the goods growing off my chest. LOL Just me, or a little weird?!

Weird was also knowing that I was 'alone' for reals. Uncle wasn't coming home later. He wasn't gonna be around to take care of the TWO Mighty Mouses that we caught while I was gone. ew. Chris was nice and actually took care of them both. Which was fine with me this time, as I'm not really feeling strong enough in my upper body to lift an entire SHOVEL to dispose of them MY way. LOL I can barely wipe my kitchen counters. So my kitchen floors, because they're unvacuumed, are pretty scary right now. Meh. It's just Crispy Rice cereal. It'll get cleaned eventually. lol

We went and finished the kids' school shopping... buying shoes and supplies. It was nice to have Chris' help, since pushing a cart woulda hurt. And I don't have the energy to deal with three monkeys alone. He has been helping a lot with stuff around here too-- getting stuff down from up high (that's the part of the surgery I hate the most-- don't really wanna lift my arms too high) and stuff like that. I haven't had to cook yet, so that's also a nice break. Won't last forever, but I'll take it for now. Thanks for the meal, too, Val!

Chris slept over Monday night. Before you all get your panties in a bunch-- it was totally fine. He, in his mid-life crisis, bought a crotchrocket motorcycle. He has wanted one for a while, so, in truth, it's not much different than me getting a boobjob. lol But the weather was crappy and raining Monday night, and he couldn't ride his bike home. He's only had his licence for a few days and isn't too confident to do that yet. No biggie. I'd prefer that anyways-- last thing I need is having to explain to my kids that something horrible happened to Daddy. Yah... soooo not up my alley. Parked his bike in the garage and slept here. Which was nice, seeing as it meant I wasn't alone in the house for the first night without Uncle. We didnt' want the kids to get confused, though, so he left before they were awake. I think having Daddy at the house in the morning would only create bigger confusion that niether Chris nor I think is a good idea. Weird, yes. But not in a bad way.

Yesterday morning I spent laughing until I cried, talking with my girlfriends on the computer. Man, I remember what I missed about that. Seriously, I have great friends.

Then, we had our final mediation meeting with Ms. Tim Hortons. It was exactly as expected-- smooth and no problems. We (being Chris and I) kinda expected to talk about certain things, but apparently mediation doesn't deal with financial agreements/housing..etc. So that kinda surprised us, only because we were hoping to put all that down on paper too. It's considered "Separation Agreement" type of stuff, and this was a "mediation agreement". Uhhh, what's the difference? Doesn't matter. It's done. At least, the mediation part is. I guess we'll eventually have to do the separation agreement part... which we will. Someday. It was nice to get that over and done with, though. Even though it took about 3 hours, it was totally good.

And my visiting teacher and another woman from my ward came over to watch not only MY kids for the 4 hours I was gone, but the dayhome kids too! Fed them lunch! Put them down for naps! Entertained them...and, shame of all shames, cleaned my kitchen. I was SOOO thankful. Especially because they both had much more important personal things to take care of, but they came and did that for me. I love the ward I'm in-- the women here are truly amazing examples of friendship and sisters.

And that pretty much leaves me at today. Took TWO painkillers last night in an attempt to get through an entire night without waking up at about 3 am in pain. It worked.... slept until the alarm went off, but my head reallllllly hurts this morning. BOO on that. So I took a tylenol. Taking a drug to minimize a drug-induced headache seems kinda addict-y to me. lol Ya ya.

Wednesday Ws

Who: Musicians
What: Made these songs
Where: in studios, I assume
When: when the mood stroke, I suppose. lol
Why: Okay, let's cut out this W stuff- it doesn't work for this part...My tunes lately. (ya yah, I know it's not Tuesday... hence, it's not a Tuesday Tunes post. It's a Wednesday Ws... and well, it's my blog, and I'll cry if I want to! lol)

And although THIS SONG was a song that reminds me of an ex (don't ask.. it's all good), I 'feel' it today.
THIS SONG is one of those ones I could listen to over and over again lately.

On a different note:

Introduced to THIS SONG recently through a friend, the words are EXACTLY me lately. I'm not generally into this type of music, but this one I like.
And when I need to remember.... why I'm doing this. (I'm really NOT this bitter, but I think it's funny to listen to. Okay, SOME days I'm this bitter... but not TRULY. I loved him. But he WAS one! *haha, how come jerks don't know they're jerks? HAHA*)


Who: The Elders
What: came over
Where: to my house, of course! lol
When: last night
Why: Well, the simple answer is because they're both being transfered to other areas, and they wanted to come by, say thanks for the good times, and goodbye. But I like to think that, in some small way, they were an answer to the prayer of my heart. No, I didn't PRAY they'd come over. But they showed up at PERFECT timing, we had a great, lighthearted talk in the backyard, and when they got up to leave, I asked for a blessing. When they pulled up in their car, as I was outside, that was HONESTLY my first thought-- ask them. I don't know my home teachers very well, and don't want to bother people to come over, so when they just showed up, I knew I was being watched over. Sounds trite to some, too religious and froo froo to others, but we all know that when times are truly hard, one's spirituality is what usually pulls them through. So tough for those who don't get that about me. I needed them right then. And they showed up. And that's not coincidental to me. These boys were great Elders, and I'll miss them. I usually like the newbie that replaces the old one(although it's rare to replace BOTH at the same time), so I'm sure things will be fine again. I needed their blessing. And I am happy I got it.

Who: Me and the kids
What: got a run/bike in
Where: through the community
When: last night
Why: It's proven that exercise alleviates feelings of depression and sadness by releasing endorphines and aiding in mental release of negative thoughts. So I took my cranky kids out... they needed those endorphines. (haha, TOTALLY KIDDING-- it was WAY me who needed it-- who are we really kidding here!? lol) Ran the same route as last time.. today, seeing EF probably would have done me in. She wasn't there, nor was her daughter. Happy not to have that dagger slightly twisted. Yes, I forgive EF. But it still reminds me of the reason the sugar hit the fan.

.....*thinks*

So really, I should thank her. Yep. Today I thank her for getting me out of that. Without her, would I have EVER known about what I know about? Would Chris and I have ever gotten better, or would I still be stuck in what I didn't SEE as unhappiness but was?

Okay, tangent over-- seriously, I need to stay on track with this post. lol

ANYWHO, running sucked. LOL haven't done it in WAY too long, so it's a good thing I did it today. Maybe I'll sleep better. But more importantly maybe it will help bring me out of this funk a bit. And, less importantly, I need to ensure that when I step on that scale tomorrow morning, it is STILL under 140. lol (yes, I step on my scale EVERY day. So what?)


Who: The Conquering HERO!
What: picked up limp-bodied Mighty
Where: from the safety of a long-handled shovel
When: yesterday.. (although Chris didn't end up coming over yesterday, I did it before lunch)
Why: now THAT is the question I keep asking myself! LOL. Yes, I picked up Mighty (in the trap, of course) with a shovel, 5 kids screaming and 'ew'ing and freaking out behind me... wait.. that was me freaking out. Nevertheless, the kids were all around, screaming too. But, PAT ON MY BACK, I put Mighty in the garbage and RESET a new trap. Yep. Me. All by myself. Don't THINK that I didn't want to call over my husky, manly-man neighbour who was outside at the time and ask him to do it... because the thought crossed my mind OVER AND OVER. But no. *I* did it. Me. By myself. With no encouragement from the peanut gallery. The peanut gallery was all dancing around like maniacs about the dead mouse. lol

We won't mention how, before I used the shovel to pick it up, I grabbed the LONGEST handled broom to 'poke' it just to be sure it was dead. ROFL. I'm not kidding. I thought, "maybe it's still alive, and when I go to pick up the dead carcass it will jump up and try to run away again!?" I HATE mice, and it's for the reason that my imagination is like THIS! lol

Wednesday Ws

Who: Mimi, my 2 1/2 year old adorable munchkin
What: is potty training
Where: uh, pretty much whereever I take her little potty-- the kitchen, the toy room, outside. Where she is, there is a potty.
When: We started yesterday morning and continued (THROUGH THE NIGHT) through today.
Why: It's potty training-- why do you THINK? But seriously! I'm sooooo excited! She's been good the entire time with average of one 'accident' a day! That's pretty impressive, if you ask me, considering that just last week she had NO interest in potty-training! AT ALL. I don't know what it was, but I'm thanking Sin for the bag of 'potty candies' for motivation. It's not against my religion to bribe my children with sugar... no sir-ee. It's working, and why mess with what works? Given, she's now figured out that NO MATTER WHAT she does in the potty, she gets to get a candy, so she has pooped a nugget a few times less than the size of a pea just to get that candy. LOL. Whatever. Once the bag of candy is gone, she'll be trained, and it won't matter.
YAY!!
I'm only slightly afraid for this weekend at Daddy's house. Will he be vigilant enough to continue such great progress? Will she feel out of her element and forget to tell him she needs to go?? Will he remember that if he leaves the house he needs to take the potty (and a bottle of water to wash it out with) with him?!!!!!

Who: me
What: bought hand weights
Where: does it matter? Well, if you really cared, they're from Walmart. But seriously, not important to the story.
When: a few weekends ago.
Why: I want to work on my arms more. My legs get worked out through the running and rollerblading and walking and stairs and blah blah blah, but my arms only get worked out by push-ups and tricep dips on the bench. I don't know how to work my biceps or shoulders without weights. It's only my second night of doing my exercises, and let me tell ya, they're hurtin' today! mmmm, I love the feel of my muscles when they've worked hard. Once the boobjob happens, I probably won't be doing much upper-body for a bit, so I have 2 weeks-ish to get as much as I can. :)

Who: Uncle A and Auntie Jo and their kids
What: are coming over for dinner tonight
Where: um... my kitchen. ???
When: when I see the whites of their eyes, but probably somewhere around 6ish.
Why: Uncle A is Chris' best friend... they are like brothers (hence the Uncle part) and he and his fiance, Jo, are in town. They live in Sylvan Lake, but came down here for the day. I love them so much, and have never met her kids, so that'll be nice. They're gonna join us for dinner, and I invited Chris too- I'm sure he'd like to see them too. So it'll be a busy night here. I'm annoyed with Chris again-- yesterday he managed to annoy me yet once more, but I don't know why I expect maturity from him-- that's not really his strongpoint these days. *cue bitterness rant over*

Wednesday Ws

Who: Me
What: forgot
Where: sitting here at the computer
When: this morning
Why:.. well, technically, it's still a 'what' question.. I forgot it was Wednesday! Which means my last post was supposed to be a Wednesday W post.
So, to my adoring fans...
get over it. :) We will resume regularly scheduled programing tomorrow.

Wednesday Ws

Who: Mr. Magoo
What: has nothing to say
Where: here at the computer
When: right now... all day....
Why: really, I have no idea. I sat here, staring at the computer, with nothing to think of writing but "oh, the next load of laundry must be done as I don't hear the dryer anymore".. But, I do have GOOD news-- my lawyer brother-in-law didn't file the divorce papers the other day because of a few issues he wanted to bring up with me, but he called me today and told me it was done. Then the courthouse called- he forgot to change something on one of the pages, so he needed to go back to fix it. So I called him. Told him. He changed it. And now we're REALLY filed. For reals. :)

Which is good. Chris should be served hopefully within the week. The other day I got a call from the Government of Alberta---they set up our mediation meetings next week. Chris meets her on Monday. I meet her on Friday. Then we meet together. (what a bunch of stupid hoops to jump through) Crazy part about this all??? lol-- the lady who did the separation course who thought I was on crack and told me there's no such thing as a "Tim Horton's Divorce".... yah, *SHE* is the mediator. ROFL. i should bring her a cup of Timmy's coffee.