I'm Such A Boob

(BEFORE I GO ON-- THIS POST HAS PICTURES-- DO NOT READ ON IF YOU DON'T WANNA 'SEE EM!')

I got dumped last night.

Chris showed up after work to chill with the kids, and watch the girls while I took Bear on his birthday date to the movie (like LL's date I spoke about here).. Bear had chosen to take me to see Wall-E. Until Daddy came over.

So, I got ditched by a cute boy for... ANOTHER cute boy!? LOL Sucked to be me. ;) No, I'm okay. I'm always glad that the kids want to spend time with Chris, so I anticipate not being on many birthday dates in the future-- Dads time is a rarer commodity than Moms is. And that's okay.

And because many have asked.. A little TMI about the boobs.. Stop reading here if you prefer NOT to see pictures you may regret seeing!!!!

the girls are good. I got blisters on the bottom of the breasts- I think it was from the tape that the Dr. had put on the first day-- when he took it off, he was NOT gentle. Think RIP!! I think it slightly blistered me. Not the point. The blisters are hurting and oozing, because they can't heal! The bra is tight (on purpose) and has to be worn 24/7 (of course, not while showering, but yah, even to bed, etc) so it's kinda sucky. Other than the blister spots, which hurt, yes, the breasts themselves don't hurt. The only thing that actually hurts is my sides/ribcage and under my armpits. My pecks don't even really hurt- but they do if I try to lift stuff that's over 15 pounds or move my arm laterally too much-- like when I scrub the counters, etc. And they're bruised like a motha', but that just LOOKS awful, it's not actually sore AT all where the bruises are. The picture here is the bruising at day one-- it got worse by day 4!!

I'm getting used to them. They're big, yes, but I like them. I'd say they're 'growing on me', but in actuality, it's more like they're shrinking on me, as the swelling is going down. But yesterday I did it--

I put on a bikini top.

And, in that moment, I smiled. Yah baby-- THAT'S more like it. I felt good, and instantly remembered the trip to the store a while ago. Now I feel MUCH better about how I feel, and I am grateful I did it. I ALMOST look like the chick in the picture, and not the man! lol Well, one can hope, at least! The before....
and the After ....

HOLY CRAP. Seeing them side by side like that... whoa. Hadn't done that yet. LOL I've been this size before-- but I was also 60 lbs heavier and had a gut to offset them! But you can see the bruises now-- the after picture is taken today. Now you can all say you have seen them. Kinda. I may delete this post in five minutes, so take a good long look before I change my mind!

*UPDATE* after talking with a few girlfriends and loyal readers.. we all agree-- that 'after' picture above makes them look MASSIVE! And they're not THAT big. I think it's just the swimsuit. So here's a picture of me (on the phone with one of those said girlfriends) and another of just me being silly-- taken today with REGULAR clothes. My kids haven't even noticed the change, so obviously they can't be THAT big.


I got good news yesterday, though. The kinda-ex/ friend (see 'cue email' part) who had been doing so terribly in life finally called me last night. I was so happy to hear from him, happy he was relatively safe and doing a bit better. It was awkward, as Chris was beside me during the conversation, and I know how Chris feels about me having this person in my life. I felt bad for Chris-- kinda like showing him that hickey he showed to me-- you KNOW it's kinda hurting them, but not like you can actually hide it. But he understood-- he was still living at home when I last talked with this ex of mine and we got in something of a heated discussion... read: Ex was an A$$, and I told him not to call me back until he was ready to treat me with respect. Since Chris was there, he know how it bothered me, so he's glad that we finally 'reconciled'...read: Ex finally was sober enough to talk like a human.

And I got MORE good news: That person whom I'm extremely close to (see the third bullet in the link), with the sickness-- it turns out to NOT be the dreaded news we were expecting, and she and her family are all very relieved. Understandably. I am so happy that things worked out well in this instance. So many people don't have good health, and it seems that more and more people are dying of cancers and sicknesses and too young an age that just shouldn't be happening! I am happy that's not the case here, and continue to pray for continued good health for me, my children, my family, friends, and Chris. I don't expect daisies and roses forever. But I'll take the summertime garden while the season is blooming so I can remember the colours in the cold of winters to come.

Although, thinking of that... It's fall after this weekend. And, I do love the changes of Autumn.